"This is my commandment, That ye love one another, as I have loved you. Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends."
- John 15:12-13

long time since i wrote, and the the things that's been happening in my world is moving fast. went out with Jedi again, went to FSRD's baksos event, Jedi picked me up after that. he went thru a pretty long distance just to picked me up and drove me to campus. two days later, we went out again. then i went to magelang, i got some bad feelings about Jedi. and it turned out 2b true again. went to see arga, tya and patricia competed in GPMB, going to the mall and met him there. then i prove that my bad feelings was true. he's going to bali and lombok tomorrow.

[my old friends ... the tears, sadness, and regrets calling me out again ...]

then i feel this warm touch on my deepest heart. and that simple feeling of being touched, wash away all my fears and wearries. i was so upset about 10 min ago, but now, i'm feeling a lot better. i can even sms him and said that God bless him, loves him, and so do i. i told him that a part of me refuse to feel that way, but the biggest force in me, make me do. i know that it's not my own ability, it's not my own power. it's God's grace, love, compassion. it's His heart ...

I thank Jesus, because He's faithfull to me ... I thank Jesus for his loving kindness towards me. I dont deserve it, but still He gives me more, and more each day. I feel so overwhelmed ...

I did pray before I sms him, and God heard me praying.
He gives what I need .... Prayer changes everything